Long over due!! Tyty and Toto

I promised these pictures a very long time ago and now I am just getting to them!! Well its finals week so I wont be able to do a life update most likely but here are some picutres for your enjoyment let me know what you think :)

Finally Time To Post( I will post pictures later)

I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving!!
Mine didn't go as well as planned but thats okay I enjoyed having a day of from school and work and just being able to spend time with those I love, even though my nana decided she wanted to be a butt.

I am pretty excited to say that I only have a couple more weeks of school left and then I get a much needed break!! I just got approval to get my associates degree so I should be recieved that shortly. Only two years left and then hopefully I will be able to start teaching :)

Things are going ok with the weight loss, I havent been sticking that well to my diet plan which kind of bums me out but I know I will be able to get right back on track I just need to make the time to prepare my meals and I will be okay. With all the stress of work and school and running around so much lately I have been eating out a lot more than usual.

So NOW on to the new and exciting news!!!

I HAVE MET SOMEONE

Here is the background story:

My mom is friends with a lady by the name of Lezlee. They went to highschool together and just this past summer re connected through the lovely website facebook.

I had only met Lezlee once and she was a total sweetheart. My mom had kind of told her a little bit about my past relationships and how I was having a really hard time meeting a good guy that I could have fun with and also who would be understanding of my crazy schedule.

Well Lezlee gets this great idea that she should hook me up with her Nephew. I was a little worried at first just because he is a bit older than me ( 30) but I thought what the heck maybe since he is older he will be more mature and more fun to be around.

So she tells Tyler to add me on facebook and he sends me a message.

He is really cute and very sweet so I give him my number

And we start texting. He is currently going to Utah University majoring in Civil Engineering and he had a job!!

We hit it off

I was so nice to finally meet someone who is smart fun and respectful!! We could talk about almost anything. He was understanding of my schedule and so supportvive. So we texted back and forth for about a week and then on November 14,2009 We had our first date. He came to pick me up at my house ( first guy to ever do that). He brought me some beautiful flowers and took me out for sushi ( my choice) He had never had sushi before and I thought it was so sweet how he wanted to try something new just for me.

I had such a great time with him. We never had a dull moment on our date, we talked the whole time and it was never awkward.

WE went to dinner and then he drove me up on campus and showed me around ( I have lived in utah my whole life and never really been to the UTAH compus) We then were on our way home and got pulled over! The poor boy was so nervous but luckily he just got pulled over because his head light was out and the cop let us go.

He took me home and then the next day we to my parents house to watch the football game ! It was so much fun. My parents realy like them and think he is a great guy!

We didnt hang out the rest of the week because he was busy and so was I but we made plans to go to the UTES game on November 21,2009!!

OH MY GOSH IT WAS SO FUN!!

WE MUST PROTECT THIS HOUSE!!

( that is what they say on third down when the other team has the ball)

It was pretty cold at the game but I had so much fun! I met his two sisters and they are total sweethearts, It is so nice to have someone who is fun and outgoing and who respects me. He says the sweetest things and is always concerned about making me happy!

I dont know how things will end up with me and him but I am really excited to see where things go. I have never felt this way before and its so nice!! Usually when I meet a guy they always have some past problems I have to deal with and the relationship becomes dificult but with him its easy which is nice!! I really hope things work out for the best :)

live love laugh

Well Well Well It sure has been a long time since I last wrote on here. Things have been going really good but I have been really busy with school, work and a new special someone one. Just a few highlights and then I will write a more detailed post later...

* Met a great guy
* Working full time still
* Weight hasn't gone down but I am still maintaining
* Only 3 more weeks of school
* Thanksgiving is coming :)

To My Mom:

I just wanted to take sometime to talk about my mom! She is the greatest lady I know and my best friend! I don't know what I would do with out her. She is such a sweet person and always is willing to help. She does so much for my family and never gives up! She is so fun and can always make me laugh. She listens to me complain and supports me no matter what. She is very protective of me and always wants to see me happy. I don't know what I would do without her. She is the always person that knows all of me and still loves me for who I am. She is there when I need advise and she is there when I need a good laugh. My mom is my hero and the woman I look up to! She is such a great wife, mom, worker, caregiver, friend, etc! She gives her whole heart to everyone and has been hurt multiple times but she never turns bitter! She is so positive! I could go on and on about how much I love her.

I am so lucky to have such a great mom and I appreciate her so much. I may not say it enough or show her how much she means to me but I just hope she knows how great of a person she really it

Today is going pretty weel, I got up early worked on some homework and went to my chemistry class. I have a cold so thats not too fun but I am pulling through dayquil is my friend and I am carrying around a box of tissues! YAY For me.

So something funny happened this weekend. My mom and her friend decided they should play match maker I was all, I will go along with this it wont hurt right. Well he added me on facebook and then he started to text me! Let me just say its nice actually being able to talk to a guy that can hold a conversation! He is going to school and works full time. he loves football and being outdoors. So we have a lot in common already which is nice. He asked me to hang out with him this weekend so I am looking forward to that! I am not going to get my hopes up though. I am just going to go will the flow and enjoy the ride! I hope things go good and we can atleast enjoy each others company it would be nice to have someone in my life who would understand me :)

Taking a Moment To think

I have been reading over my blog and I have up days and down days. I have fun days and sad days. I have come to realise that I can be as happy as I allow myself to be. I have allowed poeple to enter and control my happiness. I have always molded into what I think people want me to be instead of just doing what makes me happy. I want to be myself for once and make myself happy! I hope that doesn't make me sound selfish but I have never taken time to actually just do something for myself!! So this is what I am going to do!!

1. Focus on my studies and raise my GPA
2. Finish all my pre required classes for my major in the Spring ( atleast 18 credit hours)
3. Plan to graduate by 2012 so that I can start my career!
4. Work full time and get a part time job in the summer so that I can save up to get MY OWN house!! ( I cant wait to have a house to decorate and design)
5. Spend time enjoying my hobbies (photography, hanging with family, maybe even start painting and volunteer somewhere.)
6. Spend time working out
7. Make sure that those who are in my life know how important they are
8. Pay off my debt
10. Get a promotion
11. Spend more time organizing and planning my days so I don't waste my time doing non meaningful things.
12. Read a mystery book, read a romance novel, read a self help book.
13. Loose 50lbs and get to my goal weight!
14. Get a new hair style!
15. Pamper myself and enjoy it
16. Make new friends
17. ENJOY THE RIDE OF LIFE AND DON'T GET DISCOURAGED WHEN THINGS DON'T ALWAYS GO THE WAY I EXPECTED! EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON, WHATS MENT TO BE WILL ALWAYS FIND A WAY

TIme To Start Over

Yesterday was HORRIBLE!!

A lot of things happened that truly made me cry for HOURS
I am so sick of feeling like I have to hide from some of the people in my past.
I had to change my number, speak with my work about having better security because ROMO decided he was going to threaten me and said he would do whatever it takes to find me!
WOW
SO now I am nervous to walk to my car, Nervous at night that he might just show up.
I am so mentally and emotionally done!
I am warn out and just don't want to think about it anymore

I hope from here on out my past will stay put and I can work on moving forward
I want good people in my life
I want to be happy
I want to have a great job that works with my school schedule and allows me to meet new people
I want to feel safe
I want to feel loved by myself
I want to feel completely comfortable with who I am

I know I can make it happen I just need to focus on the good and forget about the bad and but it in a box and let it all go. I cant change my past all I can do is work toward a better future and appreciate today for what it is

I Am so thankful that I have a great family I can count on to help me through this and they support me no matter what! I love that I can always turn to them when I have a problem. I wish I had a close friend I could just cry my eyes out to but I consider my mom to be my best friend so atleast I have her

You always hear about girls who go back to men that beat them or abuse them and I always told myself I would never do that. BUt when ROMO came back into my life I fell for his lies. I gave into his controlling ways and I went back. He never hit me or was physically abusive but he was very emtionally abusive and now its time to let those scars get better and forget them

If there is one thing I could let other people know is that: Its not worth it to be with someone who doesnt love and respect you for who are. Don't fall for their whole " I will change I promise" They usually never do and a guy that has to talk about changing instead of actually doing it is just trying to fill your heads with thoughts and hopes that will never happen. Love should not hurt, It should not make you feel down and it should not scare you!

I am going to wait for that guy that treats me like an angel and who I can trust with all my heart! No more settling for me it always leads to me getting hurt